Sad news, friend... I ruined my perfect blog posting streak!
Right here on this very blog from November 2018 until just last month, I never missed adding at least 1 new blog post every single calendar month. Some months' posts were less impressive than others, but nonetheless, there was always a new post.
Here's the thing: I'm not gonna judge myself about it.
I missed a post. I'm not proud of it. I don't want it to happen again.
... but life goes on.
Don't get me wrong — I took this posting streak seriously. It was important to me. I considered maintaining this streak a part of a sort of "minimum level" of discipline for myself, and I failed myself.
But I accept my failure, and I'm moving on.
If there's one thing I'm certain about, it's that dwelling on a failure is a waste of a failure.
Failures are good and failures make you stronger. They lead you to successes.
Mulling and moping over a failure means you're letting the failure get the best of you. You are letting a stupid, little thing that is already in the past and cannot be undone take your priceless time and mental bandwidth away from things that you actually care about and can control.
I do not like to be defeated, and I'm not going to let any failure, let alone a small one like this defeat me.
What I've been thinking about these past 2 months
But I digress... this blog is about the things that I'm thinking about, and for the last 2 months, probably about 80% of thoughts have been about my apartment.
I'm prepared to lose the apartment some time next year. Unlike my income, the national interest rate my property loan is tied to is continuing to rise by large amounts.
Long story short: my monthly payment has more than doubled (from about 2500 PLN to about 6000 PLN) in less than one year, and it is possible that I will not be able to keep up on payments of this size (or larger, of course) if I do not:
- significantly increase my income (which I am working on),
- get stable income from renting 1 of the units of the 2-unit apartment.
But like my failures, I'm not letting the possibility of losing this apartment consume my headspace.
Yes, I might lose it. And that would suck... but it would be fine. It's just an apartment. Much worse things could happen. I can always buy another, better apartment in the future.
The possibility of losing this apartment is on my mind, but that's maybe 5% of the aforementioned 80%. The other 75% is just about how to finish the rental unit ASAP so that it can start bringing me income (reminder, I'm doing most of the finishing work myself while still juggling my regular work).
Not only how to finish it, but how to finish it to a high standard... so that it will be liked by clients/tenants, be low maintenance, and last as long as possible.
So that's where I'm at right now.
Happy Halloween, friend! 🎃 Remember, failures aren't spooky. 👻