I'm late with this blog post. I've double-ruined my streak now.
I'm late with lots of things lately.
I'm late to client meetings (not all, but more than in recent times — and only by a few minutes, to be fair). I'm behind on updating my calendar events to reflect how my days actually played out (I am documenting my life as best as I can, right now down to an accuracy of about 15 minutes). I'm already months behind on finishing my apartment...
This last month has probably been the busiest of my life.
At the same time, it's been one of the best for my own personal growth.
I'm stressed out, but not in a bad way. I'm stressed like a well-oiled machine chugging along at 90% of full speed.
It's like, the minute I find a hole in my schedule that I would like to fill with working on finishing my apartment, I get an urgent call from a client asking if I can do something for them, a neighbor if I can help them with something, or an unexpected problem with my tax declarations, etc.
My mind is totally chill, though. I've fully embraced "whatever will be, will be". I understand there are many things I can control, and many that I cannot. I just focus on the things that I can control.
If I lose this apartment, so be it. If I lose all my clients, so be it. If I can't please everyone... so be it.
I'll find a way. Everything will be okay. I'm alive, healthy, and I have a mind that I absolutely love. Wera has been extra supportive lately. I have nothing to complain about.
I ignore or put off low-priority things. I'm getting very good at prioritizing.
And to top it all off, you're reading this right now, and that's very valuable to me. Thank you for being here. I'm wishing you all the mental peace and stability, reader. <3